SUMMERS

Happy 1st Birthday Presley!!!

2012-01-28T15:48:00.000-08:00

Our cute little Presley turned 1 can you believe it!!! It feels as if the year flew by watching her grow and explore everything. I think time went slower before I had children, now it just goes by so quickly. I love this picture! She was so excited to explore without anyone saying "no". ;-) She really didn't get too dirty though.
Presley is walking like a champ, says: mama, dada, sissy, hi and she signs "all done". She also loves to squawk, shake her head no and blow on her hand to make noises. She walks so good and can practically run everywhere now. She has also developed and new skill of climbing on everything!
We are so lucky to have In Vitro work for our family! I knew we had more to come. She is so much fun and we are truly blessed to be her parents.
We love you Presley!!!

Preschool Christmas Program

2011-12-29T19:03:00.000-08:00

Every year my class and the Kindergarten children do a Christmas program for their parents at Melaleuca. This year was very special because my little Brynlee is now in my class. It was so much fun to have her perform with my class. She loves to sing and we are always singing everywhere we go. Ryan and his parents came to watch. I'm glad Ryan filmed it so I could watch Brynlee later because I had to lead both classes so I didn't get to just watch her. She did a great job. I love that I get to be my daughter's teacher this year. I'm also glad that she will get to have others as well, because she does try to get away with things. ;-) I can hardly believe she is already 4 1/2! Time is flying by. She looks so big in these pictures.

Brynlee's Dance Recital

2011-12-29T18:57:00.000-08:00

Brynlee got another new dance teacher this year. I was really impressed, last years girl was not on the ball. Bryn had fun both times though. She is getting so big and it is so fun to see all that she has learned. She is such a social butterfly. She isn't shy at all for this kind of stuff. I hope she keeps that quality. So many of us worry what others think and are afraid to show what they can do. I hope she continues to be herself. I think she is perfect. :)

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-27T21:01:00.000-08:00

Presley didn't really know what to think of all of this, but she did like her new toy. Brynlee was in heaven. I have two very spoiled girls. I'm sure I'm not the only one who went a little crazy for Christmas. Brynlee was very excited to get her "laptop" a cheep princess version and "real phone" vtech had a cell phone that has lots of little buttons and does all kinds of things that makes her think it is real. Love that they were both inexpensive so I could get them lots of clothes too. :)

11 Months Old!

2011-12-27T20:57:00.001-08:00

I can hardly believe that my little girl is already 11 months old! She is growing so fast and just wants to be big like her sister. She walks so good everywhere and will most likely be running by the time she reaches one year! She has been such a huge blessing to our family and we had so much fun watching her enjoy time with cousins this weekend and her first Christmas!

Summers Granddaughters

2011-12-27T20:46:00.000-08:00

Christmas Day all five granddaughters. Peighton, Ellee, Brynlee, Presley and Jaiden.

11-11-11

2011-11-14T18:50:00.000-08:00

This was the date of Presley's first real adventure in walking. It is to bad I do not know how to share the video on my blog. I did however put it on my facebook if you are my friend you can go on my wall and see it. She is 9 months and two weeks and walking!!!

Happy Halloween!

2011-11-14T18:31:00.000-08:00

We all dressed up this year. Ryan usually does not participate, so he surprised me this year. It is amazing what Daddies do for their little girls! ;-)
Ryan was a blind Referee, I was Sue from Glee, Bryn was Rapunzel and Presley was just cute in a Halloween outfit because it was too cold for her to wear her real costume.
We had a blast as usual.

My Beautiful Girls!

2011-11-14T18:26:00.000-08:00

Dress up day at School

2011-11-14T18:16:00.000-08:00

One of Presley's new obsessions.

2011-10-22T16:05:00.000-07:00

Every time I start to load or unload the dishwasher, this little helper sped crawls to help in her own way. :)

Halloween Fun

2011-10-22T15:54:00.001-07:00

Halloween is so much fun! I love the clothes, decorating pumpkins and roasting seeds. Unfortunately, Bryn did not like helping for very long. It was still fun. ;o)

Presley is 8 months!!

2011-09-27T19:39:00.001-07:00

Look at this cutie!! Can you believe that EIGHT months have flown by? I can't. It is going by so fast. She is a mover, she didn't like me attempting to take her picture in this cute basket. I did get her distracted long enough to get a couple smiles. She has the best laugh.
My favorite smile is when she also has a little of her tongue sticking out. We are so very lucky that InVitro worked for us and that we got this little miracle baby out of it. I don't even want to imagine how different our life would be with out her.
Brynlee is such a wonderful big sister and can always get a good belly laugh out of Presley.
Presley is an expert crawler and has attempted to walk a few times with no luck, but I wouldn't be surprized if she masters it within the next month. She wants to be where ever we are and also loves to crawl to Brynlee's room to play. I can't wait to hear her say mommy or daddy.

Ryan's Birthday

2011-09-27T19:31:00.001-07:00

We got to celebrate Ryan's birthday twice. He of course doesn't care about that kind of thing, but Brynlee was ecstatic. She asked me if on her Birthday she can have two cakes and have two days to party. She is a quick learner. :)

PLACEkids Model Search

2011-09-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

PLACEkids Model Search
Presley is in this. :)

Going to the Fair

2011-09-09T19:45:00.000-07:00

We went to the fair with cousins to enjoy wristband day. They were in heaven. It was so much fun just to watch them enjoy all the rides. My little girl is a dare devil too. She was not afraid of any of them. She even enjoyed the little roller coaster.

She's a mover!

2011-09-09T19:34:00.000-07:00

Presley is not content to be still! She wants to be up and moving. She crawls everywhere and pulls herself all the time. It is hard to believe this is my little seven month old.

On another note, Presley has been a very vocal screamer at night when she wakes up. I'm a light sleeper, so it is very hard for me to let her cry it out. Well over labor day weekend I tackled this challenge. It was hard, but well worth it! The first night was pure torcher for me. She screamed most the night off and on. Then next night was better. Finally by Wed. she slept through the night!!! Yay! I am so excited. Bryn was a breeze, so it was very hard on me with Presley, but the task is done. My little girl is now trained to put herself back to sleep.

Carnival Day at KKA

2011-09-09T19:25:00.000-07:00

At my work we always have a Carnival day in the summer for all the kids. One of my co-workers made all the teachers tye dyed shirts. She also made my girls one, so we matched that day. As always it was a very fun day.

Private vs. Public

2011-09-02T13:12:00.001-07:00

So what do you all think. Private blogs vs. Public blogs. I may want to switch my blog to private after noticing someone from Milan checking out only pictures of my daughter in pictures of her swimsuit.
Tell me what you all think and who all is even looking at my blog besides my mother in law and cousins?

Brynlee's swim Lessons

2011-08-12T16:21:00.000-07:00

Brynlee was in 2 sessions of swim lessons this summer and she really had a lot of fun. She was in both session with her friend and they were so excited that they had matching swimsuits.

Camping Pictures

2011-08-12T16:15:00.000-07:00

More Camping Pictures

2011-08-12T16:04:00.000-07:00

Bryan Family Camping Trip

2011-08-12T15:56:00.000-07:00

Ryan had the idea to have all the Bryan's go camping as a Family Reunion. It was a lot of fun. The Cousins had a lot of fun playing together and of course all us Adults had fun talking. I love this picture of Kendal with his pillow case. He drew him fishing with uncle Ryan and the fish they caught. It was fun family bonding.

Presley Crawling

2011-08-12T15:43:00.000-07:00

Presley has been a quick one with wanting to move. At four months she rolled over and was digging her toes into the carpet to propell herself across the room. Then around five months she got up on her knees and starting rocking and sitting up unaided. Now at six months, my little girl is sitting up all by herself and crawling all over! She follows us all over the place. I'm afraid she is going to be walking way to fast!! Because she is already pulling herself up to things to stand. I want her to stay little and enjoy every minute of her being a baby, but it is so fun to see her excelling.

Big Girl Food

2011-08-12T15:35:00.000-07:00

Presley is now old enough to eat food, so we tried her out and she loved it! She doesn't like to you to take a break either. No stopping till she is done! She is growing up so fast!

Camping

2011-08-12T15:29:00.000-07:00

Our first time camping as a Family. Bryn and Presley have never been, so it was so much fun for both of them. Mom had a hard time sleeping, but it is so much fun to give our little girls this experience. Of course Presley will not remember it so we will have to go again. :)

Presley goes swimming

2011-08-12T15:25:00.000-07:00

We went to Green Canyon with the Bryan's for a fun camping trip. Presley wasn't enjoying it at first, but then she decided this really wasn't so bad and decided to suck her toes and fingers. She was so cute kicking her legs in the water too. It was a fun trip.

Trampoline Fun

2011-08-12T15:17:00.000-07:00

I work for an awesome company that always has cool company picnics and Christmas parties filled with prize drawings. I never win, until three years ago when I won the grand prize and wasn't there to claim it, so I didn't get it!!!! (It was a 52 in plasma t.v.!) Anyway. Last year I won a clock and this year I was shocked to win a trampoline!! Brynlee was ecstatic! It was two days before her birthday and they said we could pick it up on her Birthday, so she thought of it like another birthday gift. She has been having a blast with our new toy. This picture is her having fun with the sprinkler under it! Yay for prizes!

Happy 4th Brynlee

2011-08-11T15:16:00.000-07:00

So Brynlee turned 4 in July and we celebrated with a pool/slip n' slide party. It was so much fun! She got fun stuff, but she really wanted a table and chair for her room, so we got her this Dora one that she loves. I can't believe my little girl is growing up so fast. Soon she will be in my preschool class. So fun.

Summers

2011-07-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

Here is a cute picture of some of the cute Summers! One brother is missing and his daughter and Ryan's Dad and of course all us cute daughter in laws. :)
Cameron, Tyler, Michelle, Ryan on back row
Ellee, Peighton, Presley, and Brynlee on front row.

Hiking in Jackson Hole

2011-07-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

On the 3rd of July we went hiking with Ryan's family. It was a lot of fun. the little girls kept going because they were like Dora the explorer! They always had an eye out for swiper the sneaky fox, but we never did see him. ;o)
Brynlee & her cousin Peighton look a lot alike, so I love this cute picture of them together.

Brynlee's first Hair Cut

2011-07-16T07:59:00.000-07:00

Brynlee's hair has really been bothering me lately with how scraggly it looked, so we went and got all the yucky stuff cut off so now her hair looks better. She thinks she is pretty cute too. :)

My sweetie.

2011-07-16T07:54:00.000-07:00

Ryan doesn't really like getting his picture taken, but sometimes he is a good sport and we actually get one of us together! It is summer, so that is why you get to see me looking so pasty white next to my super tan husband! He is such a cutie! :)

Cousins

2011-07-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

We had a lot of fun watching the fireworks with family over the 4th. Here are 4 of the 5 grandgirls on the Summers side. They were having a lot of fun playing together.

Presley

2011-07-16T07:47:00.000-07:00

Presley looked so cute on the 4th of July!! My friend got her this adorable outfit and she is too cute not to share. ;o)

Best Friends!

2011-07-10T15:55:00.000-07:00

Most people from college said they never say one of us with out the other! We even got nicknamed Molly and Harnie from one of our friends. I think it was really great growing up with such a close friend. I'm lucky enough to have Ryan as my other best friend now, but their will always be a really close bond between Marnie and I.
Thanks for visiting Marnie!!!

Marnie Visit's

2011-07-10T15:27:00.001-07:00

Marnie came out to visit over the 4th of July. I got to see her Thursday and Friday on the 7th and 8th!!! It was so good to see her. She moved to Dallas the end of November and I have really been missing my Best Friend! We have grown up together! I never had a sister, but I would claim her as my sister any day!! We have always had each other, so it has really been hard not having her here. She even missed Presley being born. Marn was very excited to finally meet Presley. We had so much fun just catching up.
We also went shopping and and good old girl time together. I really hope we can all go visit her sometime soon!

Rockin'

2011-07-02T15:07:00.000-07:00

After Presley impressed me with her sitting skills, she got up on her knees and starting rocking. Next she is going to try and crawl!!! Wow. Big girl. :)

Presley Sitting Up

2011-07-02T14:57:00.000-07:00

I had Presley sitting up between my legs when I realized that she wasn't using me for support. I moved and here she sat for a couple minutes before toppling over! What a big girl! She is five months. Bryn did not sit up till she was over 6 months. I was not expecting this. Don't grow up too fast Presley!

Sisters!

2011-06-25T21:17:00.000-07:00

Our Family

2011-06-25T21:13:00.000-07:00

Presley is Four Months!

2011-05-28T16:18:00.000-07:00

My cute little baby girl is growing fast! She is already four months old as of yesterday!!! She got to go to the Doctor for her check up and is now 14pounds 4.5 oz. and is 25 and 3/4inches long. He said she is in the 95th percentile for height, 70th for weight and 50th for her head. She is healthy and growing like she should be. She can roll over now and she reaches for things. She jabbers all the time too. It is so cute. We love her so much. It is amazing how quickly your life changes and how you really can't remember what it was like with out these little precious babies in your life!

Daddy's Girl

2011-05-28T16:07:00.000-07:00

I just have to say, my girls have the best Daddy! Ryan loves to do things with them both. (not so much diapers, but fun stuff)
One night he had me bring Bryn up to ride in his fertilizer truck. She loved getting to sit on the little seat. She also loves having him throw her in the air. I thought it was really cute how he was playing on the tramp with her at my Dad's b-day party.

My Dad turn's the big 60!

2011-05-28T15:55:00.000-07:00

My Dad is always a good sport, so I got him this great hat to wear on his B-day. We had a fun party in his backyard. We even got his Sister, Aunt and Cousin to drive out from Virginia for the party. The grand-kids liked helping with the presents. We had lots of friends and Family over too. It just happened to be a beautiful day too! The day before it rained all day and the day after the wind would have blown us all away!
Presley looked so cute that day too! :)

Whoops!

2011-05-28T15:49:00.000-07:00

I was trying to get a cute picture of Presley in the tub, but instead got water right in her face. I felt bad. She got water right up the nose. This is why you don't give a bath and take pictures at the same time! :)

Cousin Fun

2011-05-28T15:41:00.000-07:00

Peighton and Ellee came to visit a couple weeks ago. Ellee didn't want her picture taken with these guys, but here is Peighton with Bryn and Presley. I think is is pretty cute! Bryn and Peighton look a lot alike!

Mother's Day

2011-05-28T15:29:00.000-07:00

What more could a girl ask for? These two are adorable and have my whole heart! I am so very thankful to have these precious girls be mine!

Brynlee's Dance Recital

2011-05-28T15:18:00.000-07:00

Brynlee had her Dance Recital the end of April. Her Teacher was not very organized this time. (It was a new Teacher) So I really didn't get good shot's of Bryn dancing. She had taller girls in front of her. It was still fun to watch and Presley was dressed cute to watch her big sis.

Smiling Girl

2011-04-18T20:45:00.000-07:00

I was so lucky to get this cute smile from Presley. She was just chilling on my Dad's lap laughing at the ceiling fan. Then she turned to me at just the right moment. My Dad was busy ignoring me. :)
I love that smile, it makes my heart melt. These little moments make motherhood so worth it!!
All those years of infertility make me appreciate every little thing she does.
I got a pretty good laugh today. She had spit up all over herself, so I put her in the tub for a bath. After I placed her on her changing table to dry her off, she sneezed. Not normally a big deal, execpt when she sneezed, it forced some poop to fly out her bum! That girl had some big force behind it. It shot all the way to her closet door! This is something she won't want me to remember, but it really did make me laugh really hard, even while I cleaned up the mess.

Diva in Training

2011-04-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Bryn had dance practice today, so we had 2 take a few pictures of how cute she looked. She posed w/ her hand on her hip. Silly girl. What is scary is how grown up my little girl looks!
She is such a cutie! I just am so lucky to have my girls! I just wish they didn't grow so fast! I look at her and still can see my little baby Brynlee sometimes. Yesterday Ryan was playing peek a boo with Presley and Brynlee was laughing so hard. It struck the memory of when Brynlee was little and would laugh at her Dad when he played it with her. I'm glad she still thinks Daddy is funny, because I know someday she will not feel that way. I hope that her teenage years she will still need us and not be embarrassed by us too much. We are a lot older than her. Ryan and I were talking about this. We are the same age as our parents were when they stopped having kids, and we are just getting started. So we will be the older parents at all the kids functions! I hope we will still be cool to her! :)

2 Months

2011-04-18T19:59:00.001-07:00

These pictures are always so sad. Presley getting her two month shots. Yeah, this was a few weeks ago, but I'm not on top of my blogging.
I can't even find my sticker that tells me exactly how much she had grown, but I remember she weighed 11lbs 3oz and was 23 inches long. But I can't remember percentile.
I do know that this little girl's cry makes me want to cry. I love her so much already. Who wouldn't?
I do have to say that Brynlee thought this was justice seeing someone else get a shot though. She kept saying I had one too Presley. Which she did back in September!

Presley's Blessing Day

2011-04-01T15:54:00.000-07:00

We blessed Presley on March 27,2011. She was exactly two months old. I had this planned for a while, but the week before my Grandma Denning died at the age of 92. So I didn't know if I should change it. I didn't because of family coming to her blessing, so we had a very emotionally draining weekend. My Grandma's viewing was on Friday, Her funeral on Saturday and the baby blessing on Sunday. I cried a lot that weekend. All good cry's, but still very draining. My Grandma's funeral was beautiful. She lived a very full and long life and I'm so grateful I took Presley for her to see the week before she died. My Grandma left a huge legacy behind. 28Grandchildren and 56Great Grandchildren with 3 more on the way. I always wanted a big family too. I am so lucky that Heavenly Father has listened to our prayers and answered them with these two Beautiful little girls. I still pray that we can add to our family, but I am not ungrateful for what I do have. I love my family. I am so lucky to have Ryan, Brynlee and Presley!!

2011-04-01T15:53:00.000-07:00

Me and my Beautiful Girls!

2011-04-01T15:24:00.000-07:00

This is my favorite shot of the day. Sweet smile.
She started smiling at 5 weeks for me and others on 6 weeks. Now she is smiling a lot. I love it!

2011-04-01T15:02:00.000-07:00

I splurged on Presley's cute ruffle butt. Too cute!

Grunt Baby

2011-02-15T15:24:00.000-08:00

So I haven't updated lately about our wonderful new Presley. I have this titled as Grunt baby because that sums up Presley pretty good and Ryan gave her that nick name. :) She is always making grunting noises. It is pretty funny, although it keeps me awake sometimes at night because I think she is waking up when she isn't.
At Presley's two week appointment, she had grown a whole inch since birth! Plus she was up to 8 pounds! She is doing so well. Brynlee is adjusting okay for now. She is still really excited to be a big sister. She was very excited to wear her big sister shirt today when she saw me pull out Presley's little sister shirt and has told Prestley every time she is awake that she is the big sister. Every time I change Prestley, Bryn has to race me down the hall to get the diaper first.
I am so happy that she is finally here. She is so much fun just to hold and realize she really is ours! Cute tiny fingers and toes to kiss again. Babies are so precious! I am so happy that In Vitro and prayers worked for our family.
Brynlee told me yesterday that when she grows up she is going to be a mommy too. It was really cute and it almost made me cry. Being a mommy is challenging, but ooooh so worth it!!! Take it from someone who has wanted to be one for so long. :) It is all it's cracked up to be for me at least. :)

Family

2011-02-02T11:11:00.000-08:00

Here we are from a Family of three to our new wonderful Family of Four. Brynlee is so cute and keeps counting us. (She makes sure to make herself the number three each time since that is how old she is. ) We are so excited to start this new adventure with Presley in our lives. She had a Doctor apt. yesterday and is already back up to birth weight. She is so precious and I love watching Brynlee explore Presley's little hands and face and hair with her soft hands. She tries to be so careful and you can tell she is happy to be a big sister!

Close up!

2011-01-30T17:54:00.000-08:00

We are not sure who she looks like yet, but we were really surprised at her dark hair. Ryan and I were both toe heads. I got to say that no picture does her justice. You just got to see her in person! She is so cute!

Presley Noel

2011-01-30T17:43:00.000-08:00

Here is my Beautiful new daughter Presley Noel. She weighed in at 7lbs 6oz and only 20inches long. A lot smaller than her big sister. She also has really dark hair and her eyes are already a darker blue. So they may go brown like mine. She is so precious and we are so overjoyed to have her in our family.
Ryan won the name game. He would not give in to my favorite name of Addalyn. So she is Presley and I love her no matter what her name is. :)
I am so happy to be a mommy again. She is just wonderful. She is a good nurser who made my milk come in on night two of her birth. We are so excited to get to know her personality and see how she changes. We love her so much! I really love the soft side of Ryan babies bring out in him. He turns to mush and it is so adorable!

Me at 38 Weeks

2011-01-20T14:53:00.001-08:00

I realized today I haven't gotten any shots lately of my enormous belly. So I decided with the recent talk of my Doctor moving my date back to the 27th of January, that I better get on that! Yep, Doctor Oldroyd said he is feeling up to it, so yesterday they called me and told me he wants to do my c-section on Jan 27th when I am 39 weeks along!!!! I am so excited and so grateful for prayers! This has been such a long journey to get this little girl here. We began this process way back in December 2009. We have had many ups and downs, but they are all worth it. Yes, she still doesn't have a name, but we are ready for her to come join our family!

Christmas Morning

2011-01-20T14:48:00.001-08:00

Here are just a couple shots of Christmas morning. The baby got a "little sister" shirt and Brynlee got a "Big sister" shirt and her favorite was her new guitar she wanted so badly!

Weigh in your guess!

2011-01-17T17:34:00.000-08:00

So Brynlee was three days over due and weighed in at 8pounds 11ounces. What are your guesses on what Baby number 2 will be. I of course feel huge!

Also tell me what you think of a few names. We are still debating and do not know what it will be. We can't agree. So don't be mean if you hate a name, but tell me which you like the best.

Addalyn, Brielle, Hartley, Presley, Mckenna, Ashlyn, Jordyn, Riley, Sophie

Bummer

2011-01-09T20:52:00.000-08:00

So, I have tons I need to catch up on. We had a great Thanksgiving in Vegas and a wonderful Christmas with Family. I will have to post pictures later.
The bummer news is that with a c-section your second birth is always a week early and planned. The Doc has been telling me this whole time either the 27 or 28 of January will be the big day. But when I went in the end of December they told me the Doc was having knee surgery and would be out all of January and that I am scheduled for Feb. 2!! That is one day before my due date! So if I happen to go into labor, I get who ever is on call for him that day. One of the Doc's I know because I grew up by him. So no I really don't want him to do the surgery. The biggest problem is that neither Doctors will know any of my history and know if things look good or bad compared to my surgery I had last February. It is pretty upsetting for a woman this far along in the game! They are hoping I don't go into labor because they do want to see inside me to compare. I never did go into labor with Brynlee, so who knows if I will this time.
I really don't want to go into labor either, because then it does become more of an emergency c-section and more rushed than the other way of being planned. I know all women go through the craziness of not knowing exactly when it will happen, but I went eight months thinking I knew the exact date only to have it taken away!
Plus can I say how extremely exhausted I am of trying to come up with a name that Ryan and I both like. I have my fave and he has his. The problem is we do not like each others names. Maybe we need the extra time to agree on one! Anyway, now I got that off my chest!
On a high note, we got the baby crib bedding and set up the crib finally so I feel a little more prepared for our little girl coming, and Brynlee is so excited to become a big sister. She keeps asking me how much longer before she comes. I love when she comes and kisses my belly and say hi to her sister.

Santa

2010-12-20T16:45:00.000-08:00

Since I was a little girl we always got to go over to my Grandma and Grandpa Denning's house on Christmas Eve for dinner and the highlight of the night was always Santa visiting. Well, now that we are older, we always meet earlier in the month, but Santa still visits. This year we meet on my Birthday, so we didn't stay long, but we went just so Brynlee could tell Santa what she wanted. She was so excited to tell him what she wanted. She told me all day long that she was going to be brave and not scared of Santa this year. So when he came in and she ran towards me, I wasn't surprised that she was all talk. She did however surprise me when he called her name and she jumped right off my lap to go sit on his. She was brave and did tell him what she wanted. It was funny that he heard "Hippo Car" instead of a guitar. She laughed at that and thought he was pretty funny. Children are so much fun!
I'm so glad our family still does this every year. It is so much fun.

Dance

2010-12-20T16:40:00.000-08:00

Brynlee was so cute doing her dances. She made her mommy very proud. I thought it was the cutest thing ever! I know she wasn't exactly perfect or anything, but it was still really cute to see. She just seemed so big to me. :) I loved it.

2010-12-20T16:15:00.000-08:00

Brynlee before her Dance Recital.

Boo at the Zoo

2010-11-01T15:31:00.000-07:00

We took Brynlee to Boo at the Zoo with my parents. She loves to see all the animals and it is packed with people. My Dad and I were already dressed up that day, so we were stylin too. :) My Dad's glasses light up, but you can't tell from the picture. He looked really good though.

Dressed up for School

2010-11-01T15:19:00.000-07:00

Brynlee and I dressed up for Halloween.

2010-09-01T18:35:00.000-07:00

Drumroll please!

2010-09-01T18:27:00.000-07:00

So, as always things are not ever perfect. The baby wouldn't give a really good look down below. What the tech saw looked like girl. She didn't see that tell tell boy. So, she said she is 85% sure it is a girl. The baby gave some other really good side profile shots though that made me so happy to see her little body moving inside me. She also had her hand up like she was waving. Very cute. Then she looked like she started to suck her thumb which surprised Ryan cause he didn't know they could do that this young. I love that modern technology has evolved so much that we can see every thing and know that the baby is doing good and is developing right on track. Another girl will be easy because yes, I do already have a lot I can reuse. The only problem is that they will be born in opposite seasons, so I will have to still do some clothes shopping. Oh Darn. :)

Vote Fast!

2010-08-27T15:28:00.000-07:00

So when I went to the Doc this Tuesday I asked if I really had to wait till I was 20 weeks to find out what I am having. She said she would let me go early as in one to two weeks. So when we made the appointment I was very happy to have one the very next week. On September 1st I get to go have my ultrasound to make sure everything is going good with the baby and see what the sex of our new bundle of joy will be. I am so excited! So you will have to vote fast for what you think it might be! I can't help you out. I don't have any feelings one way or the other..

Our Trip to Park City

2010-08-10T16:19:00.001-07:00

2010-08-10T16:11:00.000-07:00

Summers Family

2010-08-08T18:15:00.000-07:00

Ryan's youngest Brother Cameron just got home from his mission to Samoa, so we took some family pictures the day he spoke in church. It was lots of fun. Their are a lot more pic's but I'm not going to post them all right now. I think they are kind of cute though.

Brynlee is Three!

2010-08-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

Brynlee loved her Birthday! She got spoiled with Dora the Explorer. We just had a BBQ at our house, but I know she had a blast! She is already talking about her next birthday. I just can't believe she is three. The only bad thing is that now that she is three, she sure has been a bit more naughty. She has been throwing more fits and just not listening as well. I know she wants to be more independent, but I hope to have her behavior under control before the baby comes or I will be in big trouble. She moves up a class in school at the end of this month. I hope she sees that she can be a big girl and still listen to her mommy! :)

Three Years Ago

2010-07-15T15:31:00.000-07:00

So three years ago today was my due date for Brynlee's arrival. Those who know me well knew what a struggle it was to get pregnant with this little miracle child. So of course I was so disappointed when this day came and went with out her arrival! I was so nervous that something might go wrong. But three days later with the help of the Doc doing a c-section I finally got to meet this beautiful little girl! I was beyond happy. I found out their was way more damage than anyone thought to my reproductive parts so that too was a blessing. It also showed me how Heavenly Father can do anything! Even though the Doc had no idea how this beautiful little girl could have come to be in me at all, she made it. She is perfect too. I never could have imagined her any better than she is. She has changed Ryan and I's world for the better. It has been the best three years of both of our lives. So Happy Birthday on Sunday July 18th Brynlee Boo! (sorry I couldn't find my disc with Brynlee as a Baby, so you get to see her 1 year old pic and her just a few days ago on her slip n slid. I love that pic!)

2010-06-13T19:54:00.001-07:00

Results

2010-06-13T19:23:00.001-07:00

We do know how many babies are inside me. The magic number is 1! Can you believe it. I'm a little shocked after we put in three eggs. I really had a feeling it might be twins, but as usual I am wrong. I am still super excited though and I guess that is why I felt like we needed to put in all three. We are very lucky to have this blessing. Thanks goodness for prayer to Heavenly Father and modern technology to let this even be possible for us. The due date it Feb. 3, 2011!!! I waited to post this till I saw the heart beat, but we have known for a week now. I am so grateful that we get to add to our family, this has been a dream of ours for many years now, and we are just ecstatic!! To tell you the truth, I don't even care if we get a boy or a girl. I love having a girl and wouldn't mind another, but we would definitely love a boy too. So what ever happens is great!
Thank you all for all your many, many prayers on our behalf!!!

Whaoooooo!

2010-05-28T15:49:00.000-07:00

So of course you all know what I did on May 16! The embryo's were transferred. Well, my sis-in-law works for my gyno here in I.F. I called her Monday to see if I could do the test early as in Friday instead of Saturday. Well, my gyno said I could do it as early as Monday if I would promise not to be upset if it was negative because that is still early. Well, it has to be at least a 10 to be a positive. On Monday it was 21! Yay! I was really excited but still scarred. I told my In Vitro nurse the good news when she called me back. She said to get tested again Thurs and Saturday to make sure the number keeps going up. Well, I did go on Thursday and she didn't call me back until this morning. The number shot up to 147!!!! She said that is a good strong number. Now I get to go back on June 5 to see how many are in there. Most people do not even know they are pregnant this early, so I am really lucky they let me find out early. I'm not even two weeks since the transfer.
Ryan didn't want me telling anyone because so many things could still go wrong, but I'm sick and tiered of all the bad news I get to post on here. This is so exciting!!! We are both ecstatic and pray that everything stays on track and we get a baby out of this.
We have really experienced so many little miracles in this long process. I know God has heard our many many prayers as well as all of those offered by all of you! A while back I posted that I had got some really bad news from the Doc I wasn't going to talk about yet. Well, he had called to tell me that my endometriosis had depleted my egg reserve and that I may not have any eggs. He wanted to talk about egg doner with me. I decided to just go ahead and try and see what we got. Well, the Doctor was shocked when we got 5 eggs and of the 5, three had fertilized. He told me that he had never in his 20 years seen anyone like me get results like that. I knew that was a huge miracle that Heavenly Father blessed us with. Part of the reason I really wanted to do In Vitro was so I could see what Ryan and I mixed genes would look like in our children and so I could be the one controlling all that goes into my body. The option to adopt is still on the table some day down the road, but In Vitro was now or never.
Keep those prayers coming, they do truly help us. Thanks you guys for sharing all your love and support with us too.

The Big Day!

2010-05-18T17:26:00.001-07:00

We arrived at Reproductive Care Center early because we were so excited. They gave me a Valium before the procedure, but I don't think it kicked in till after. It really didn't hurt like all my other procedures because they mapped my cervix and knew exactly where they were going. They told me all the other Doc's most likely got caught in my c-section scar from the inside. Lovely huh. After it was all over I was so tiered. That is when I think the Valium finally kicked in for me.
So far I have been feeling a little bit of discomfort and a feeling of bloating. They said that would be normal, so I am taking it as a very good sign.
I have to wait till May 29th to know if I am pregnant, and a couple more weeks to know how many I am pregnant with. Yay, I can hardly wait!

Sunday

2010-05-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

So, Sunday is the big day!! I can hardly wait. I woke up really early today, because I am so excited. I pray all goes well for the embryo transfer. So keep those prayers coming. I really feel good about this and know it is the journey our family should be on. Keep all your good mojo coming our way. :)

In Vitro

2010-05-10T19:11:00.000-07:00

I am very excited, last week when I went to the Doc, my cysts were gone. :) He said he could fit me in with a batch (cycle) that just started. (They like to group a lot of women at the same time.)
So I got to start Meds that night. (That was Monday May 3rd).
Today I drove down again to have them check me out. I will not have a lot of eggs like other women, but he did see some good ones today. I got to take more shots and then I get to go down again on Thurs. If all goes well I will get to go Sat or Sun to have them implanted.
So, keep us in your prayers. We need all the help we can get.
I had Ryan give me a blessing last night and I feel really good about this.
It is an adventure to say the least, but one I am so grateful to have the opportunity to experience. I pray all goes well and we get a little one to add to our family.

Poor sick little girl.

2010-04-24T10:38:00.000-07:00

My little Brynlee has been so sick this week. On Monday I noticed she felt a little warm and was cranky, but I had no idea what I was really in store for. That night she got really hot, so I called into work. (This is my co-teachers last week of work because she is having her baby on Monday April 26. So I really wanted to work with her all week instead of having to call in.) On Tuesday Brynlee scared me with a temp of 104.7 So I took her in to the Doc. Her only other symptom was diarrhea. He said not to be concerned it would just have to work its way through her system. Well I had to call in Wed too. That day she went potty like 10 times. (the very yucky kind) She was also complaining about her tummy hurting and didn't want to eat anything. She did drink for me though.
My work said I had to come in Thursday because their was no one. I begged Ryan to stay home because he was sick too, but he said he had to go to work too. I really didn't want her to go over to my mom's house and infect everyone over there, so I took her with me to work to show them I how truly sick my little girl was. I got there and she puked all over my shoulder and arm. Gross huh. (I do feel really guilty calling in sick to work, because I know we are short handed till one of our employees gets off her LOA)
I was sent home and I was in for a hellish day. She cried and only wanted to be held while I stood. She didn't want me to sit. Well, I can't physically do that all day. She is light, but I can't do that. I did however finally get her to sleep. (while she slept my work called and told me they worked it out for me to be off with her Friday too. I felt so relieved because I knew she was so sick) She did sleep for 2 hours and then daddy got home. She continued to cry and cry and hold her tummy. I felt so helpless. Ryan had come home because it was raining and he felt the same as Brynlee. He told me to run to the store to get them both some med and he would hold her.
I didn't even get on to 45th before he called me to come back because she threw up again. Of course he couldn't clean it up because it made him feel like vomiting too. (Poor guy huh, not!) Anyway, she seemed a little better after she puked. But she still wasn't herself.
Friday she still had some potty issues but she was able to hold a little food down. She even asked if she could go to school yet.
This morning she woke up hungry, but now my belly hurts! I really hope I don't get it now. But you can tell it took a lot out of her. She is still really cranky and we slept in till 8, and she fell asleep at 10:30 a.m.!!! I really hope when she wakes up that she feels better. Having sick kids is not fun. It gives me a new appreciation for my mother and all of us kids. She was always good at making us feel better. I tried my best to do the same for my little one. I was the only one she wanted while she was sick too. It does make you feel needed, but it is so draining.

Easter Fun

2010-04-10T08:57:00.000-07:00

Losing the Toddler Look!

2010-04-02T15:27:00.000-07:00

Here is my beautiful little girl. I can't call her my baby anymore. She is growing so fast. It is so exciting to see her turning into a little girl, but also so sad to see that baby stage go away. At least she still loves me and lets me kiss her in front of her friends. I know from working with children that stage will be soon to come. The Fertility Doc did give me more bad news, that I'm not going to go into right now. I get to do more tests. But look at the beautiful miracle that Heavenly Father gave me. I think she is the best blessing I have ever received! I am so blessed to be her Mother. I will keep praying that I will be able to carry another child soon, but I love the memories I have of carrying Brynlee inside me.

update.

2010-03-15T16:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry I haven't updated what has been going on. I was a little depressed about the whole situation.
Surgery was of course worse than they thought, so they did end up opening me up. I figured on that, but what I had not considered happened. Not only did they take both my tubes, but they also took my left ovary! I was very upset by this development. Apparently it was completely consumed by my endometriomas.
So I only have one ovary left to do In Vitro with. That should be all I need though. My local Doc said he would get a hold of my Fertility Doc and at my next apt. tell me what is up. When I got to that apt. he told me to just get a hold of the Fertility Doc.
So as soon as I left his office, I called and got an apt for Friday the 12. I went back to work on the 9, so I asked my boss right after I made the apt and she said no way I can have off. (The fertility apt I could go in or call and talk to Doc at that time, so I didn't have to cancel)
Anyway, Friday came and another class was really low, so I said I'm going to go to my apt. So my parents were nice enough to go with me since Ryan could not.
When I got there the Doc said the other one never did talk to him or send the right info, so I had to tell him best I could what happened. We discussed options and he told me I was right on track that I could start the next day!!!!!!! I was so excited. He wanted to look at my ovary before he did any thing else though.
Unfortunately the ultrasound showed that I already have two cysts on my ovary. He said he is really concerned that I have two already when it hasn't even been a month since my surgery. He said we would do some blood work and if it came back that the cysts were not sending off too much hormone I would still be able to start the next day.
I got to meet with the Nurse next and she explained everything about the meds and shots and gave me a calendar that explained everything and it even included a due date!!! Dec. 15.
Now I was really excited.
They got my blood and I left on cloud 9.
Next day they didn't call. They told me they would call by 5, so I called left a message. They finally called me back at 6:30. It was bad news. They would have let me proceed if my hormone level was less than 70, it was 140! They also told me I am anemic and need to take an iron supplement. I told them that I had lost a lot of blood with my surgery. They agreed it might just be that but to take a supplement.
I held it together for about 15 minutes, but then reality sunk in and I was so sad!
Now I have to wait at least a month. They will do another ultrasound and blood test. If they are gone we will proceed. If not then they will put me on birth control. They want to see if the cysts go away on their own before giving me birth control, but I would rather just take it and get closer to In Vitro.
They know what they are doing though, so I do just need to be patient. It is still a huge rollercoaster ride!

Surgery

2010-02-10T15:43:00.000-08:00

I was told by the Fertility Doc that he believed one of my tubes needed to be removed. So he had my local Doc do a dye test on me to see for sure if my tube was blocked.
This was a horrible procedure that hurt like hell on me. It of course was suppose to be only a little uncomfortable, but unfortunately for me, was so much worse than that.
I was very glad Ryan went with me to hold my hand. It felt like I was being stabbed on the inside of my body. It took him only about 30 minutes, but I was in pain for the next three days.
The Dye test showed that both tubes were blocked!! :( I was very upset and in pain and just wanted them all to leave me. The Doc said he would call the Fertility Doc and get back to me later that day. Well, It has been a week and a half with me making calls to make sure they didn't forget about me.
Today finally paid off. The Fertility Doc wants my local Doc to remove both of my tubes and a endometrioma with a Day surgery next week. Hopefully that is all it will be. Because last time I talked to the Fertility Doc he thought it might possibly be the kind of surgery where they open up my c-section scar to get in and clean it all out. Last time I had that done I was in a ton of pain!!!
This will mean that I will only be able to have children by doing In Vitro, no more miracle babies like Brynlee. But, that is okay. I just pray that it does all work out so that I can have another baby!

If you need a good laugh on my account!!

2009-12-27T09:29:00.000-08:00

I have to start with the movie "Something about Mary" for you to truly know what I was thinking. The part where Ben Stiller's character zips up his beans and frank in his zipper and everyone has to come and look and freak out!!!
OK, so Ryan and I are finally lucky enough to go to the fertility clinic and see what we need to do to get started with In Vitro. We got our first visit on my birthday (happy birthday to me present). The Doc did an ultrasound that discovered three cysts and what he thought looked like a fibroid. The fibroid is a non cancerous tumor. So, he wanted me to come back to do a saline sonogram to know if I have to have surgery before we can do anything. You have to be at a certain point in your womanly cycle for this to work, so he scheduled me to come on Dec. 24 before he left on vacation.

So I get there with Ryan on the 24th. They tell me this is a very uncomfortable procedure. So, first off it is not my Doc. My Doc decided to take his vaca early. So this other Doc doesn't know any of my history and is trying to do catch up, so he wants another ultrasound first so he knows what he is dealing with. Right off the bat the machine goes down and we have to wait for it to reboot. Then he does that and finds no fibroid. Then he tries to do the catheter to put in the saline. I inform him that every Doc has had trouble with getting it to go in. So he wants to try something else. When he goes to take out the thing that holds you open down stairs, he discovers that it is broke inside of me!!!!! He can not turn the knob of it to get it down. he looks and Ryan and say: "Sir are you feeling strong? Do you want to give it a try?" Ryan says : "NO!" The Doc looked horrifying and calls in a few more nurses. So here I am spread eagle on this dang table with all these nurses and the Doc trying to figure out how to get this out of me!!! I of course thought of the movie Something about Mary and was a little worried they would be calling in lots of people to try and deal with the situation. How vulnerable am I at this point. I was trying to hold it together, but freaking out inside!!! They finally after about 10 minutes got some plyers and got the bolt to turn and got it out.
The Doc tells me that never in his 20 years has anything like that ever happened before to him! (Thanks that makes me feel all better!) So he tells his nurse to throw that one away! Then he chooses a smaller one. That one after about 1 minute shots out on it own hurting like hell on the way out! He looks at me again and says how sorry he is that he know that hurts. (Yeah, I really doubt he KNOWS how that feels.)
Then he proclaims he finally got the catheter in . I tell him I feel lots of water coming out. He says that is normal, then say "Oh, I guess it isn't in."
So they go about trying again. Only this time they use the ultrasound machine to guide it. (Mind you all of this is kinda painful!!) When he finally gets it, it seriously lasted like 20 seconds and he said the machine took about 2000 pictures and he got what he needed.
He almost ran from the room he was so embarrassed about all the things that went wrong.

After we left Ryan and I could laugh about it, but while it was happening, it was pretty dang freaky!

Christmas 2009

2009-12-27T09:17:00.000-08:00

Christmas morning was very funny. Brynlee was so concerned that Santa was still in our house. She wouldn't let Ryan go, until she looked around and was satisfied that Santa was not here. Then she really enjoyed all the things Santa left for her. It was a fun filled day that we spent with both our families. We have truly been blessed with such great families in our lives. Thanks everyone for a wonderful Christmas!

Seven Years!

2009-12-14T15:05:00.000-08:00

So of course I can't figure out how to upload a picture, but 7 years ago today I married my love Ryan! I remember I was so extremely excited to be getting married to the man I loved more than anything. Of course things have changed, I still of course love him. It's just that real life has happened, and it is not all sunshine and roses. Sometimes we do fight, but I wouldn't change one minute of our lovely marriage together. Ryan is a wonderful Father and I love my handsome man very much! I still remember the first day I meet him and how sad I was that I didn't think I would ever see him again. He was with some of my friends and I never dreamed he would look me up and call me to go out. When I look back at my journals, I feel in love with him fast and knew right from the beginning that we were meant to be together. He felt the same way, but wanted to wait to get married. He enjoyed living at home for free too much. So it we dated for almost two years. It would have been sooner if I would have jumped from a bridge into the water went we went bridge jumping in the summer, but I was too scared. Of course that is why he told me that of course.
Anyway, I just wanted to write that I love Ryan more than anything and I am so extremely happy that he came into my life and that he is going to be with me for all eternity!!! I live for him and Brynlee they mean everything to me, with out them I would be lost.
Love you Ryan

Watch and Jean Party

2009-12-14T15:01:00.000-08:00

I just wanted you all to know I am almost to my goal of In Vitro. I am still trying to get there! So This Saturday Dec. 19 I am having another beading open house and I will have a girl here selling really cute jeans too. Feel free to stop by any time between 10 am and 2! I always post this on my facebook, but thought I would share it here too.

Better Late than Never

2009-11-25T17:42:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know. Halloween is over and Thanksgiving is tomorrow, but I just got these posted. Sorry. I think they are pretty cute though. I can't believe how fast my little girl is growing. She is so much fun. I loved hearing her say "trick or treat". She loved Halloween and still talks about it. She had so much fun trick or treating with my class at Melalueca, at Boo at the Zoo, and Trunk or treating. Too bad I didn't get to do all that as a kid. We just had a pillow case and the neighborhood. Times have a changed!! :)

Bracelet Watches

2009-10-14T20:04:00.001-07:00

Here are a couple examples of the cute watch bracelets I make. For the few of you who have never seen these, you can attach the bracelet to the same watch face, or get lots of both and mix and match. Lots of fun! I do parties at my house, where you can build your own for $12 for the bracelet and $12 for the face. If you buy the ones I make, they are $20, but I will cut you a deal if you buy a set. I have been doing parties and they are so much fun. I have one this Friday. Next Wed. I am going to do an open house @ my work and then I am going to do one the following Tues. at my mother in laws school and I will be doing the super Saturday for Church, but if more of you would like to host a party, I am more than willing to open my house or bring my beads to your house. I just made a new order for beads and watch faces, so get a hold of me quick if you want to do one or look at them.
I am really hoping I can earn money as quickly as possible so I can do In Vitro.

Fund Raising

2009-09-27T13:18:00.001-07:00

So here are a couple of ideas I have for raising money.
My Mother in law made the cute apron and the woman who does my nails made Brynlee the cute hooded towel. Plus I thought I could order a lot of necklaces online as well as more beads and do a couple big open houses and send out flyer's or something to tell why I am doing this. Tell me if you think they are cute and weather or not you think I could make it work!

Not my time. :(

2009-09-24T15:27:00.000-07:00

This week last weekend I have felt very crampy so I figured I wasn't prego and decided that I am not going to do any more IUI's. I decided I am going to go with IFV and try to do some fund raising or something to get on that as soon as possible.
Then the strangest thing happened. I always, always start spotting by day 26 or 27, but I haven't yet. So then I start to suspect maybe it finally worked. I am suppose to test tomorrow, but I begged the doc to let me today and get my agony over with. Well, the results from the blood test were negative. I was at a 2 again when you need to be at a 19 or higher to be pregnant.
Yes I was very upset as usual. Everyone at work already knows and were very gracious to give me the love and support I needed.
I really feel like this isn't something I can keep waiting on. A good friend of mine has a sister who has endometriosis like I do. She had to go in this last weekend in pain. They found her ovary had twisted over to the side and died, plus a huge cyst was in their and the endometrium had grown onto her bowels and intestines, sticking them together.
While I was pregnant with Brynlee, the endometrium stuck my bowels to my uterus. I am so afraid that something like that will happen to me and I will not be able to have more children. The Doctor only gave me those few times with IUI because he really feels that In Vitro is my only option. He just humored me with some try's.
So, I may be doing some fund raisers here soon to try and earn the money for In Vitro as soon as possible. I can not imagine not ever getting to experience pregnancy again. I loved feeling Brynlee move inside me, and to get to hold a new born baby that is yours is unreal!
Yes, I know motherhood isn't all sunshine and roses, but I am so grateful that I at least got to experience it. It has changed our lives for the better. Brynlee is a huge blessing and I am so grateful for her every day, even when she is naughty and frustrating me. She makes up for it with all her good behavior and love.

2009-09-13T19:13:00.000-07:00

Number Four!

2009-09-12T12:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went in for another try at the IUI. This was my most painful visit so far. He had to use lots of instruments to get inside. He told me that every one's anatomy is different and that it is just harder for me. He said he rarely see problems like mine. I really wish that wasn't the case, but no pain, no gain right. That is the saying, so hopefully we will get another miracle out of this, so here's to praying for another chance!

Not a charm!

2009-08-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

So, third time was not the charm! We are not pregnant. Their is a big story with this one though. I went in to have the IUI done on Thursday. By Friday afternoon I was starting to hurt. It was just like the pain I had with my cysts. By Saturday morning I could hardly move it hurt so bad. But I had a beading watch party @ 2, so I had to clean the house. Ryan was nice and helped. But, then he left with Brynlee because he didn't want to be here for the party. I took medicine and tried my best not to look like I was hurting. The party went well, but I was so cold. When everyone left, I took my temp. It was 103.2! I was shocked. So I took more med and fell asleep. It was only 5:30p.m. But I slept till Ryan got home @ 7. I told him I wanted a blessing, because I was really afraid what was going on inside my body. I was worried the temp would kill any chance I had. So He gave me one and I went to bed. The next morning I still had a temp and I was still in pain, but it had decreased a little. I went to Sacrament, but it really hurt to sit there, so I left and went home and napped more. I called my co teacher to tell her to come in for my early shift and I would try to be their by her normal time.
Monday morning came with my fever braking and the pain subsiding a little more. So I did go to work holding my side to control the pain. I called my Doctor and he didn't like what I said and wanted me to come in right away.
He did an exam on me and ordered some blood work and an ultrasound. So I basically spent all of Monday in waiting rooms. He wanted me to come back after my tests.
At my ultrasound I could see a tiny little sac that the tech measured. I asked her what it was, and she ignored me. When I got to the Doctors office he told me I had Hyper stimulated Ovaries. He said it is so rare that they never even warn people of the possibility of it with comid. So I asked if the chance this go round was over due to the fever and everything else and he told me that he really hesitates to tell me the next part. He told me about the tiny sac that they saw on the ultrasound was consistent with an early pregnancy. He told me I could be pregnant right now, so to take it really easy because it might not stick. I of course couldn't hold back my tears. I was so excited for the chance to be pregnant. He told me if it didn't work he would let me try again with a different drug called femara. He also told me he would let me take a pregnancy test early. So he ordered one for Friday.
I tried to take it easy all week, and when Friday came I was so excited to hear the confirmation that I was pregnant, but instead they told me I was not. They said I was at a 2 when you need to be over a 19 to be pregnant. I wasn't expecting that. They told me their was a tiny chance it could be wrong so to call when I started or if I didn't. So I cried and called Ryan to tell him.
Then I chose to believe that the test was wrong and that Heavenly Father could make the miracle happen.
But then Thursday night I started and I knew I was not pregnant. At least it gave me time to pull myself together before having to call the Doc the next morning. So on Monday I start Femara and get to have another try. He told me that I could get Hyper stimulated Ovaries again, but a lot of people who don't get pregnant on Clomid get pregnant on Femara. So I pray that I can become pregnant and get off this horrible roller coaster of emotions!!!!!!
It really sucks to think you might be pregnant only to find out it didn't take. It makes me really sad and makes me wonder what I am doing wrong. I know we need Heavenly Fathers help to make this work and I really hope that his timing will line up with ours soon. I really don't think I can handle much more of this. Plus I wonder what I did wrong to not let that last one stick. Should I have taken the whole week off and just lied in bed? These are some of the things I wonder.
At least I do have another shot at this. So keep those prayers coming in for us, we need them. I also need prayers of comfort to try to keep myself together here. It really sucks not feeling normal. I want my body to work the right way. I know we all get our trials in life and that they will make us stronger, but I also know sometimes you hit rock bottom before feeling better. I don't know where I fall in this.

Third Time

2009-08-12T18:15:00.000-07:00

So, tomorrow I will go in for our third try of the IUI. I really pray this one works! They had a really hard time last time and of course that caused me pain. I really think if it comes down to doing In Vitro, It will be longer than I want due to funds. It costs a lot!!! I know it would be worth it though. So pray for us, We really want more in our family.

Bear World

2009-08-09T17:54:00.000-07:00

So, I knew I would never take Brynlee to Bear World on my own, so I took her when I took my class. She was so good too. I knew all the kids in my class would help with her, because they all want to hold her hand. Anyway, she had a blast as well as my whole class. She really liked sitting on my lap and pretending to drive while we looked at the animals. We did this the end of July, but every time Brynlee see's a bus she signs bus to me and Bear. It is so cute to see she remembers things so well.
The last picture we were at the Rexburg Spray Park. She wouldn't even let me put her down. She hates to get her head wet. So maybe next year she might like that one.