Cravin Babies!!!!

I have never fully understood everyone ooohing and awwwing a new baby. I always think they are so beautiful and love to old them, but as I held my new niece, I felt this awe of just how short and precious the time is you have with a new born.
I found myself ooohing and awwwing every little movement and I felt this overwelming sence of how much I truely want another baby. I had a flood of memories hit me of Brynlee as a newborn and how all just keep looking to the new things she could do. Now she is a big girl, almost two!!
All you know how much I want more, but I really try to think of it at a distance so that I do not get depressed or upset. I wasn't upset to hold her, it just made me realize that my craving more children is very real. I want more children so badly! I don't ever get upset by others getting pregnant, many are afraid to tell me when they are. I would never wish on anyone what I have gone through.
The best part of my weekend, was that my mother in law told me she is still willing to help us with in vetro when we want. I was so excited. So we will try the artifical insemination, then if that doesn't work, I still have the option of in vetro . That totally helped out my baby craving and gave me the hope I have been wanting!!!
The picture of Brynlee holding her new cousin, actually makes me cry. It is so precious, and I can just imagin her holding a new sibling.

New Cousin Jeidin

We went to Salt Lake to see Jason and Heidi's new baby girl. We packed a ton of fun into just two short days.

Doctor Visit

I made an appointment with my Doctor to have a consultation about what we can do to get more children. Of course they always make me feel stupid a little. "Remember, your last one was a miracle, I don't know if we can do anything." But I'm at the Doctors for a little HOPE! He told me that invitro was our best option. I told him we don't have the money for that right now, because we did just buy a house. He was nice and told me he would let me try clomid again with artificial insemination. He told me he would only let me try it for three months though, plus that's only if my ultrasound looks okay. I might have too much endometriosis that would require a surgery first. I guess he gave me what I wanted. He did give me a little hope that we might be able to get a baby. So pray that we can get us some more miracle babies, because I desperately want a family!! Brynlee has been an enormous blessing and I am so very grateful for her. So here's to hoping and praying!!!!!