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Since I was a little girl we always got to go over to my Grandma and Grandpa Denning's house on Christmas Eve for dinner and the highlight of the night was always Santa visiting. Well, now that we are older, we always meet earlier in the month, but Santa still visits. This year we meet on my Birthday, so we didn't stay long, but we went just so Brynlee could tell Santa what she wanted. She was so excited to tell him what she wanted. She told me all day long that she was going to be brave and not scared of Santa this year. So when he came in and she ran towards me, I wasn't surprised that she was all talk. She did however surprise me when he called her name and she jumped right off my lap to go sit on his. She was brave and did tell him what she wanted. It was funny that he heard "Hippo Car" instead of a guitar. She laughed at that and thought he was pretty funny. Children are so much fun!I'm so glad our family still does this every year. It is so much fun.
Brynlee was so cute doing her dances. She made her mommy very proud. I thought it was the cutest thing ever! I know she wasn't exactly perfect or anything, but it was still really cute to see. She just seemed so big to me. :) I loved it.
Brynlee before her Dance Recital.
So, as always things are not ever perfect. The baby wouldn't give a really good look down below. What the tech saw looked like girl. She didn't see that tell tell boy. So, she said she is 85% sure it is a girl. The baby gave some other really good side profile shots though that made me so happy to see her little body moving inside me. She also had her hand up like she was waving. Very cute. Then she looked like she started to suck her thumb which surprised Ryan cause he didn't know they could do that this young. I love that modern technology has evolved so much that we can see every thing and know that the baby is doing good and is developing right on track. Another girl will be easy because yes, I do already have a lot I can reuse. The only problem is that they will be born in opposite seasons, so I will have to still do some clothes shopping. Oh Darn. :)
So when I went to the Doc this Tuesday I asked if I really had to wait till I was 20 weeks to find out what I am having. She said she would let me go early as in one to two weeks. So when we made the appointment I was very happy to have one the very next week. On September 1st I get to go have my ultrasound to make sure everything is going good with the baby and see what the sex of our new bundle of joy will be. I am so excited! So you will have to vote fast for what you think it might be! I can't help you out. I don't have any feelings one way or the other..
Ryan's youngest Brother Cameron just got home from his mission to Samoa, so we took some family pictures the day he spoke in church. It was lots of fun. Their are a lot more pic's but I'm not going to post them all right now. I think they are kind of cute though.
Brynlee loved her Birthday! She got spoiled with Dora the Explorer. We just had a BBQ at our house, but I know she had a blast! She is already talking about her next birthday. I just can't believe she is three. The only bad thing is that now that she is three, she sure has been a bit more naughty. She has been throwing more fits and just not listening as well. I know she wants to be more independent, but I hope to have her behavior under control before the baby comes or I will be in big trouble. She moves up a class in school at the end of this month. I hope she sees that she can be a big girl and still listen to her mommy! :)
So three years ago today was my due date for Brynlee's arrival. Those who know me well knew what a struggle it was to get pregnant with this little miracle child. So of course I was so disappointed when this day came and went with out her arrival! I was so nervous that something might go wrong. But three days later with the help of the Doc doing a c-section I finally got to meet this beautiful little girl! I was beyond happy. I found out their was way more damage than anyone thought to my reproductive parts so that too was a blessing. It also showed me how Heavenly Father can do anything! Even though the Doc had no idea how this beautiful little girl could have come to be in me at all, she made it. She is perfect too. I never could have imagined her any better than she is. She has changed Ryan and I's world for the better. It has been the best three years of both of our lives. So Happy Birthday on Sunday July 18th Brynlee Boo! (sorry I couldn't find my disc with Brynlee as a Baby, so you get to see her 1 year old pic and her just a few days ago on her slip n slid. I love that pic!)
We do know how many babies are inside me. The magic number is 1! Can you believe it. I'm a little shocked after we put in three eggs. I really had a feeling it might be twins, but as usual I am wrong. I am still super excited though and I guess that is why I felt like we needed to put in all three. We are very lucky to have this blessing. Thanks goodness for prayer to Heavenly Father and modern technology to let this even be possible for us. The due date it Feb. 3, 2011!!! I waited to post this till I saw the heart beat, but we have known for a week now. I am so grateful that we get to add to our family, this has been a dream of ours for many years now, and we are just ecstatic!! To tell you the truth, I don't even care if we get a boy or a girl. I love having a girl and wouldn't mind another, but we would definitely love a boy too. So what ever happens is great!Thank you all for all your many, many prayers on our behalf!!!
So of course you all know what I did on May 16! The embryo's were transferred. Well, my sis-in-law works for my gyno here in I.F. I called her Monday to see if I could do the test early as in Friday instead of Saturday. Well, my gyno said I could do it as early as Monday if I would promise not to be upset if it was negative because that is still early. Well, it has to be at least a 10 to be a positive. On Monday it was 21! Yay! I was really excited but still scarred. I told my In Vitro nurse the good news when she called me back. She said to get tested again Thurs and Saturday to make sure the number keeps going up. Well, I did go on Thursday and she didn't call me back until this morning. The number shot up to 147!!!! She said that is a good strong number. Now I get to go back on June 5 to see how many are in there. Most people do not even know they are pregnant this early, so I am really lucky they let me find out early. I'm not even two weeks since the transfer. Ryan didn't want me telling anyone because so many things could still go wrong, but I'm sick and tiered of all the bad news I get to post on here. This is so exciting!!! We are both ecstatic and pray that everything stays on track and we get a baby out of this. We have really experienced so many little miracles in this long process. I know God has heard our many many prayers as well as all of those offered by all of you! A while back I posted that I had got some really bad news from the Doc I wasn't going to talk about yet. Well, he had called to tell me that my endometriosis had depleted my egg reserve and that I may not have any eggs. He wanted to talk about egg doner with me. I decided to just go ahead and try and see what we got. Well, the Doctor was shocked when we got 5 eggs and of the 5, three had fertilized. He told me that he had never in his 20 years seen anyone like me get results like that. I knew that was a huge miracle that Heavenly Father blessed us with. Part of the reason I really wanted to do In Vitro was so I could see what Ryan and I mixed genes would look like in our children and so I could be the one controlling all that goes into my body. The option to adopt is still on the table some day down the road, but In Vitro was now or never.Keep those prayers coming, they do truly help us. Thanks you guys for sharing all your love and support with us too.
So, Sunday is the big day!! I can hardly wait. I woke up really early today, because I am so excited. I pray all goes well for the embryo transfer. So keep those prayers coming. I really feel good about this and know it is the journey our family should be on. Keep all your good mojo coming our way. :)
I am very excited, last week when I went to the Doc, my cysts were gone. :) He said he could fit me in with a batch (cycle) that just started. (They like to group a lot of women at the same time.)So I got to start Meds that night. (That was Monday May 3rd).Today I drove down again to have them check me out. I will not have a lot of eggs like other women, but he did see some good ones today. I got to take more shots and then I get to go down again on Thurs. If all goes well I will get to go Sat or Sun to have them implanted. So, keep us in your prayers. We need all the help we can get. I had Ryan give me a blessing last night and I feel really good about this. It is an adventure to say the least, but one I am so grateful to have the opportunity to experience. I pray all goes well and we get a little one to add to our family.
My little Brynlee has been so sick this week. On Monday I noticed she felt a little warm and was cranky, but I had no idea what I was really in store for. That night she got really hot, so I called into work. (This is my co-teachers last week of work because she is having her baby on Monday April 26. So I really wanted to work with her all week instead of having to call in.) On Tuesday Brynlee scared me with a temp of 104.7 So I took her in to the Doc. Her only other symptom was diarrhea. He said not to be concerned it would just have to work its way through her system. Well I had to call in Wed too. That day she went potty like 10 times. (the very yucky kind) She was also complaining about her tummy hurting and didn't want to eat anything. She did drink for me though.My work said I had to come in Thursday because their was no one. I begged Ryan to stay home because he was sick too, but he said he had to go to work too. I really didn't want her to go over to my mom's house and infect everyone over there, so I took her with me to work to show them I how truly sick my little girl was. I got there and she puked all over my shoulder and arm. Gross huh. (I do feel really guilty calling in sick to work, because I know we are short handed till one of our employees gets off her LOA)I was sent home and I was in for a hellish day. She cried and only wanted to be held while I stood. She didn't want me to sit. Well, I can't physically do that all day. She is light, but I can't do that. I did however finally get her to sleep. (while she slept my work called and told me they worked it out for me to be off with her Friday too. I felt so relieved because I knew she was so sick) She did sleep for 2 hours and then daddy got home. She continued to cry and cry and hold her tummy. I felt so helpless. Ryan had come home because it was raining and he felt the same as Brynlee. He told me to run to the store to get them both some med and he would hold her. I didn't even get on to 45th before he called me to come back because she threw up again. Of course he couldn't clean it up because it made him feel like vomiting too. (Poor guy huh, not!) Anyway, she seemed a little better after she puked. But she still wasn't herself.Friday she still had some potty issues but she was able to hold a little food down. She even asked if she could go to school yet.This morning she woke up hungry, but now my belly hurts! I really hope I don't get it now. But you can tell it took a lot out of her. She is still really cranky and we slept in till 8, and she fell asleep at 10:30 a.m.!!! I really hope when she wakes up that she feels better. Having sick kids is not fun. It gives me a new appreciation for my mother and all of us kids. She was always good at making us feel better. I tried my best to do the same for my little one. I was the only one she wanted while she was sick too. It does make you feel needed, but it is so draining.
Here is my beautiful little girl. I can't call her my baby anymore. She is growing so fast. It is so exciting to see her turning into a little girl, but also so sad to see that baby stage go away. At least she still loves me and lets me kiss her in front of her friends. I know from working with children that stage will be soon to come. The Fertility Doc did give me more bad news, that I'm not going to go into right now. I get to do more tests. But look at the beautiful miracle that Heavenly Father gave me. I think she is the best blessing I have ever received! I am so blessed to be her Mother. I will keep praying that I will be able to carry another child soon, but I love the memories I have of carrying Brynlee inside me.
Sorry I haven't updated what has been going on. I was a little depressed about the whole situation.Surgery was of course worse than they thought, so they did end up opening me up. I figured on that, but what I had not considered happened. Not only did they take both my tubes, but they also took my left ovary! I was very upset by this development. Apparently it was completely consumed by my endometriomas. So I only have one ovary left to do In Vitro with. That should be all I need though. My local Doc said he would get a hold of my Fertility Doc and at my next apt. tell me what is up. When I got to that apt. he told me to just get a hold of the Fertility Doc.So as soon as I left his office, I called and got an apt for Friday the 12. I went back to work on the 9, so I asked my boss right after I made the apt and she said no way I can have off. (The fertility apt I could go in or call and talk to Doc at that time, so I didn't have to cancel)Anyway, Friday came and another class was really low, so I said I'm going to go to my apt. So my parents were nice enough to go with me since Ryan could not.When I got there the Doc said the other one never did talk to him or send the right info, so I had to tell him best I could what happened. We discussed options and he told me I was right on track that I could start the next day!!!!!!! I was so excited. He wanted to look at my ovary before he did any thing else though. Unfortunately the ultrasound showed that I already have two cysts on my ovary. He said he is really concerned that I have two already when it hasn't even been a month since my surgery. He said we would do some blood work and if it came back that the cysts were not sending off too much hormone I would still be able to start the next day.I got to meet with the Nurse next and she explained everything about the meds and shots and gave me a calendar that explained everything and it even included a due date!!! Dec. 15. Now I was really excited.They got my blood and I left on cloud 9.Next day they didn't call. They told me they would call by 5, so I called left a message. They finally called me back at 6:30. It was bad news. They would have let me proceed if my hormone level was less than 70, it was 140! They also told me I am anemic and need to take an iron supplement. I told them that I had lost a lot of blood with my surgery. They agreed it might just be that but to take a supplement.I held it together for about 15 minutes, but then reality sunk in and I was so sad!Now I have to wait at least a month. They will do another ultrasound and blood test. If they are gone we will proceed. If not then they will put me on birth control. They want to see if the cysts go away on their own before giving me birth control, but I would rather just take it and get closer to In Vitro. They know what they are doing though, so I do just need to be patient. It is still a huge rollercoaster ride!
I was told by the Fertility Doc that he believed one of my tubes needed to be removed. So he had my local Doc do a dye test on me to see for sure if my tube was blocked.This was a horrible procedure that hurt like hell on me. It of course was suppose to be only a little uncomfortable, but unfortunately for me, was so much worse than that.I was very glad Ryan went with me to hold my hand. It felt like I was being stabbed on the inside of my body. It took him only about 30 minutes, but I was in pain for the next three days.The Dye test showed that both tubes were blocked!! :( I was very upset and in pain and just wanted them all to leave me. The Doc said he would call the Fertility Doc and get back to me later that day. Well, It has been a week and a half with me making calls to make sure they didn't forget about me.Today finally paid off. The Fertility Doc wants my local Doc to remove both of my tubes and a endometrioma with a Day surgery next week. Hopefully that is all it will be. Because last time I talked to the Fertility Doc he thought it might possibly be the kind of surgery where they open up my c-section scar to get in and clean it all out. Last time I had that done I was in a ton of pain!!!This will mean that I will only be able to have children by doing In Vitro, no more miracle babies like Brynlee. But, that is okay. I just pray that it does all work out so that I can have another baby!
Since I was a little girl we always got to go over to my Grandma and Grandpa Denning's house on Christmas Eve for dinner and the highlight of the night was always Santa visiting. Well, now that we are older, we always meet earlier in the month, but Santa still visits. This year we meet on my Birthday, so we didn't stay long, but we went just so Brynlee could tell Santa what she wanted. She was so excited to tell him what she wanted. She told me all day long that she was going to be brave and not scared of Santa this year. So when he came in and she ran towards me, I wasn't surprised that she was all talk. She did however surprise me when he called her name and she jumped right off my lap to go sit on his. She was brave and did tell him what she wanted. It was funny that he heard "Hippo Car" instead of a guitar. She laughed at that and thought he was pretty funny. Children are so much fun!
