Update

So many things have happened since I last updated my blog.  I have been on a roller-coaster ride of emotions with our quest to add to our family.  InVitro has had many complications.  I had a cyst that would not go away.  I went from month to month not knowing if it would go away for us to do invitro.  It became very painful and emotionally draining.  In September the Dr. decided we need to try draining the cyst.  In October I was finally given the go a head to do Invitro.  I started all the medicine.  I had a wonderful feeling about it.  It felt like it was finally going to happen.  On October 30th Ryan and I went to Utah for them to harvest the eggs.  Their were three.  We were so excited.  On Halloween on was on pins and needles just waiting to hear back from the nurse to see how many fertilized and to find out if I would go back on Thursday or Friday to have the eggs implanted.  The day felt extremely long.  At 3:00p.m. I still hadn't heard anything.  I called and left a message.  Fifteen minutes later I finally got the call.  I was still at work so I ran into the hall to take it.  As soon as I heard the Dr.'s voice, I was worried.  I ran outside of the building to hear him.  I asked if none of the eggs fertilized, he said no the opposite.  All three fertilized, the problem was that all three fertilized with two sperm. I thought that was impossible so I was confused.  I still didn't understand.  The Dr. was very sympathetic  and explained that all my eggs were unusable.  They contain too many DNA, and that would result in a cancer and that they would never put anything like that inside me.  
I was completely numb.  I was trying to register that my dream was over.  Ryan had told me we would never do this again, this was our last chance.  I just wanted to run and hide.  I grabbed my kids and hurried home.  Ryan immediately left work to be with me.  My girls looked so worried and I could barely tell Brynlee what was wrong.  She was so sweet and told me she would hold me on the couch.
When I got home and ran to finally break down completely in my room.  A few minutes later I hear my door bell.  I also hear the garage.  When I came up front to see what was going on, my nieces and nephew were here to trick or treat.
I realized, I was going to have to pull myself together for my kids.  My daughter Brynlee was so excited to go trick or treating.  So maybe it was a blessing it happened on Halloween.  I had to get out of my pity party and be a mom to my two girls.  I was on the verge of tears all night and I told my boss I had to take off work the rest of the week.
The next day I called and set up an appointment to talk with the Dr.  He was incredible.  He had us in on Friday so we could discuss our options.  He was completely shocked this happened to us, but explained  a lot of things to us that we didn't know about fertility.  We do get to try again. This next time we will do it with their help of inserting each egg with one sperm.  I may get to start in December if my cyst doesn't come back.  I am very hopeful.  I feel like this is the path we should be on.  I am grateful for my two beautiful girls, but I don't feel like we are complete yet.  This is a heart wrenching path to be on, but every time I look at Presley I think about how we could have never had her with out invitro and Heavenly Father.  So I will keep praying that all works out and we can add another child to our family.
I know this was a really long post, but sometimes it is easier for me to get out the whole story, so thanks for letting me ramble on and on.

Family Pictures of 2012

In Vitro

I am such a jumble of emotion!!!  Tomorrow I head down to Utah to meet with the Dr. and start my meds if all the blood work and ultrasound look good.  I am super excited, but Ryan is in Arizona right now, So I am also a wreck!  I wish he was here to go with me, but it fell during his Referee Camp that he has been planning forever.  He will be back in time for his contribution. (he he) I just feel so many different emotions.  I pray all goes smoothly and according to plan and that we end up with another beautiful baby to add to our family.  Any and all prayers welcome!

I'm off to bed, I have to be up super early for my appointment.

These are my precious little girls!
  I am so lucky to be their Mom.  I love that they love each other and want to cuddle each other too.  We have not had the most conventional way of getting our family.  Presley is our InVitro baby and it took us three years in the begging to get Brynlee.  We have very limited time to try again before I have to have a hysterectomy.

So the time has come where we need every single prayer we can get to help us get another baby with the help of InVitro again.

I am so excited!!!  I have already been on birth control to get me into the cycle the Dr. wants me to be in for InVitro.  So I stop the birth control on Monday and go see the Dr. on Friday to have an ultrasound and blood work done.  If all looks good then I get to start my very expensive Medicines that day!  Then we would go back the following Friday to see if the medicine is doing what the Dr. wants.  Then I would go the following Tuesday for the Dr. to retrieve my eggs and have Ryan fertilize them. (hehe.  the most romantic part.(-;lol)  Then they watch the eggs and see which day would be the best to put them back inside.

With Presley we retrieved 5eggs, 4 were mature, only 3 fertilized.  So I put in all three and we only got Preslsey.  I am really hoping for similar results, but really wouldn't mind twins.  I hope that doesn't make me greedy,  I just have always wanted at least 4 children, and twins would get me to my goal of a good size family.  In all reality I just really want it to work and for us to have another child to add to our family.  

So, like I said before, we really need lots of prayers send our way.  I felt everyone's love and support when we did this with Presley.

Happy 1st Birthday Presley!!!

Our cute little Presley turned 1 can you believe it!!! It feels as if the year flew by watching her grow and explore everything. I think time went slower before I had children, now it just goes by so quickly. I love this picture! She was so excited to explore without anyone saying "no". ;-) She really didn't get too dirty though.
Presley is walking like a champ, says: mama, dada, sissy, hi and she signs "all done". She also loves to squawk, shake her head no and blow on her hand to make noises. She walks so good and can practically run everywhere now. She has also developed and new skill of climbing on everything!
We are so lucky to have In Vitro work for our family! I knew we had more to come. She is so much fun and we are truly blessed to be her parents.
We love you Presley!!!

Preschool Christmas Program

Every year my class and the Kindergarten children do a Christmas program for their parents at Melaleuca. This year was very special because my little Brynlee is now in my class. It was so much fun to have her perform with my class. She loves to sing and we are always singing everywhere we go. Ryan and his parents came to watch. I'm glad Ryan filmed it so I could watch Brynlee later because I had to lead both classes so I didn't get to just watch her. She did a great job. I love that I get to be my daughter's teacher this year. I'm also glad that she will get to have others as well, because she does try to get away with things. ;-) I can hardly believe she is already 4 1/2! Time is flying by. She looks so big in these pictures.

Brynlee's Dance Recital

Brynlee got another new dance teacher this year. I was really impressed, last years girl was not on the ball. Bryn had fun both times though. She is getting so big and it is so fun to see all that she has learned. She is such a social butterfly. She isn't shy at all for this kind of stuff. I hope she keeps that quality. So many of us worry what others think and are afraid to show what they can do. I hope she continues to be herself. I think she is perfect. :)

Merry Christmas!

Presley didn't really know what to think of all of this, but she did like her new toy. Brynlee was in heaven. I have two very spoiled girls. I'm sure I'm not the only one who went a little crazy for Christmas. Brynlee was very excited to get her "laptop" a cheep princess version and "real phone" vtech had a cell phone that has lots of little buttons and does all kinds of things that makes her think it is real. Love that they were both inexpensive so I could get them lots of clothes too. :)

11 Months Old!

I can hardly believe that my little girl is already 11 months old! She is growing so fast and just wants to be big like her sister. She walks so good everywhere and will most likely be running by the time she reaches one year! She has been such a huge blessing to our family and we had so much fun watching her enjoy time with cousins this weekend and her first Christmas!

Summers Granddaughters

Christmas Day all five granddaughters. Peighton, Ellee, Brynlee, Presley and Jaiden.

11-11-11

This was the date of Presley's first real adventure in walking. It is to bad I do not know how to share the video on my blog. I did however put it on my facebook if you are my friend you can go on my wall and see it. She is 9 months and two weeks and walking!!!

Happy Halloween!

We all dressed up this year. Ryan usually does not participate, so he surprised me this year. It is amazing what Daddies do for their little girls! ;-)
Ryan was a blind Referee, I was Sue from Glee, Bryn was Rapunzel and Presley was just cute in a Halloween outfit because it was too cold for her to wear her real costume.
We had a blast as usual.

My Beautiful Girls!

Dress up day at School

One of Presley's new obsessions.

Every time I start to load or unload the dishwasher, this little helper sped crawls to help in her own way. :)

Halloween Fun

Halloween is so much fun! I love the clothes, decorating pumpkins and roasting seeds. Unfortunately, Bryn did not like helping for very long. It was still fun. ;o)

Presley is 8 months!!

Look at this cutie!! Can you believe that EIGHT months have flown by? I can't. It is going by so fast. She is a mover, she didn't like me attempting to take her picture in this cute basket. I did get her distracted long enough to get a couple smiles. She has the best laugh.
My favorite smile is when she also has a little of her tongue sticking out. We are so very lucky that InVitro worked for us and that we got this little miracle baby out of it. I don't even want to imagine how different our life would be with out her.
Brynlee is such a wonderful big sister and can always get a good belly laugh out of Presley.
Presley is an expert crawler and has attempted to walk a few times with no luck, but I wouldn't be surprized if she masters it within the next month. She wants to be where ever we are and also loves to crawl to Brynlee's room to play. I can't wait to hear her say mommy or daddy.

Ryan's Birthday

We got to celebrate Ryan's birthday twice. He of course doesn't care about that kind of thing, but Brynlee was ecstatic. She asked me if on her Birthday she can have two cakes and have two days to party. She is a quick learner. :)

PLACEkids Model Search

PLACEkids Model Search
Presley is in this. :)

Going to the Fair

We went to the fair with cousins to enjoy wristband day. They were in heaven. It was so much fun just to watch them enjoy all the rides. My little girl is a dare devil too. She was not afraid of any of them. She even enjoyed the little roller coaster.

She's a mover!

Presley is not content to be still! She wants to be up and moving. She crawls everywhere and pulls herself all the time. It is hard to believe this is my little seven month old.

On another note, Presley has been a very vocal screamer at night when she wakes up. I'm a light sleeper, so it is very hard for me to let her cry it out. Well over labor day weekend I tackled this challenge. It was hard, but well worth it! The first night was pure torcher for me. She screamed most the night off and on. Then next night was better. Finally by Wed. she slept through the night!!! Yay! I am so excited. Bryn was a breeze, so it was very hard on me with Presley, but the task is done. My little girl is now trained to put herself back to sleep.

Carnival Day at KKA

At my work we always have a Carnival day in the summer for all the kids. One of my co-workers made all the teachers tye dyed shirts. She also made my girls one, so we matched that day. As always it was a very fun day.

Private vs. Public

So what do you all think. Private blogs vs. Public blogs. I may want to switch my blog to private after noticing someone from Milan checking out only pictures of my daughter in pictures of her swimsuit.
Tell me what you all think and who all is even looking at my blog besides my mother in law and cousins?

Brynlee's swim Lessons

Brynlee was in 2 sessions of swim lessons this summer and she really had a lot of fun. She was in both session with her friend and they were so excited that they had matching swimsuits.

Camping Pictures